VOTE

With the presidential election a little over a week away, this will be a short and simple post encouraging everyone to go out and vote. However, please do not vote for the candidate just because he shares a similar ethnic background as you, he was once a POW, he is attractive, you want to bang his running mate, you wanted someone else to be president and since he beat that person in the primary you want him to lose, or any of the other ridiculous realizes out there. Make an informed vote. Vote for the candidate you truly believe will do the best job representing this country on a global level, the candidate who shares your beliefs on issues that are important to you, whether it be abortion, same-sex unions/marriage, health care and/or the economy. Vote for the candidate that you believe can make strong, informed decisions in the midst of party pressure, economic turmoil and international crisis. This is not an endorsement for any one candidate but an endorsement of an informed choice. Don't believe the hype, every politician lies and the likely hood that either of the candidates can fulfill all of their campaign promises are slim to none. So everyone 18 and older should cast their vote come next Tuesday, and if you don't, you have no right to complain if the country isn't going in the direction you think it should or the next Supreme Court judge tips the scale of justice in a way you don't agree.

Life Lessons

One of the greatest gifts I have received this year came from a friend that gets how I think, even though he some times doesn’t agree with y thought process. It is a simple book he gave me, a book filled with ideas/mottos, that seem to reflect how I view the world and my life. Thank You and You’re Welcome by Kanye West with J. Sakiya Sandifer, is a quick and simple read but most of what is said, speaks volumes in understanding me and to a certain extent validates the way I think and approach life. Here are just a few of the more relevant entries:

the Best sees the Best
I pride myself in being able to recognize the best in others. I see it as a testament of my taste level. I can’t stress enough the importance of surrounding yourself with energy that supports your goals. Old folks used to say, “You can’t soar with eagles if you’re walking around with chickens.” Unfortunately, I have encountered countless chickens and not just on tour either.

There have been times when I’ve had to separate myself from certain family members, childhood friends, and people in general who brought negative energy into my life. It is not always easy, but very necessary.

If you know you’re the best, it only makes sense for you to surround yourself with the best. NO EXCEPTIONS!

WOULD YOU BELIEVE IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN if you were the only one who believed in it?

…When someone is strong enough to believe in something only they believe in, people are going to call them crazy…sometimes crazy is a label that the average put on the exceptional.

YOU should be HAPPY right?
I refuse to accept other people’s ideas of happiness for me. As if there’s a “one size fits all” standard for happiness.

Regardless of your position in life, no one but you is qualified to determine your happiness.

I think it’s great to never be completely happy or satisfied in life. If I ever became completely satisfied with the work I put out as an artist….that is the moment I would suck!

It is the sand which irritates the oyster that makes a pearl.

I WOULD RATHER LOSE BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE WAS RIGHT THAN WIN WHEN I’M WRONG.

Never justify your behavior with the wrongs of others

You should never make a point that starts off with “But you.” That’s a sure sign of a dysfunctional, tit for tat exchange.

When does it make sense that because someone else made a bad decision, now you should?

You must learn to fight the impulse of believing: it’s not fair that you can do it and I can’t.

It is a man’s own mind
Not his enemy or foe,
That lures him to evil ways.
-Buddha.

I WOULD RATHER BE HATED FOR WHO I AM
THAN LOVED FOR WHO I’M NOT

I question anyone who questions me…but I question myself all the time!



Just some food for thought. These words may mean nothing for any of you, but for me, it’s just a reminder on how I try to live my life.

10 minutes before work begins (brief update)

So I haven't been posting as much as I would like, sue me, I've discovered that if I try hard enough I can have a life. My niece, my little angel, is so precious. I love her dearly and I find it very hard not to be home when I know she is going to be there and even harder to go to sleep when she is awake (not because she is crying but because I really like being around her). Last night was no different. I wanted to go to bed around half time of the Monday night game which tends to be the end of Heroes, but that didn't happen. She and I watched most of the 3rd quarter of the football game together until her mother came to pick her up (she, my little girl is a football fan. She sees a game on and her eyes are glued to the t.v. and starts to cry when you pull her away...too cute). She is 4 months now and still looks like my brother when he was her age, so there is no deny who her daddy is...lol.

On the weekends I have found myself up and down this great state (New Jersey for those of you who don't know). Malls, house partys, dinners andTarget (ok, I may need to get an application soon, I'm ready to admit I have problem 'A'.) . I have spent time with friends, gotten to know some new people and rekindled some old friendships (hey my adopted Big Brother). Life has been pretty good. Things with the best friend have been going great, we talk everyday and it feels like we have never spent any time apart. I'm happy that he is doing well and I must add looking great (OMG the bastard looks like he is still in his early 20s...stop hating 'A' lol). Before the year is out I know I have to make a trip to Bayonne to visit 2 friends, I will make it there eventually, just on my own time. I still would like to go to MA to visit my little brother, but right now I'm trying to put away some money, so I'm holding on to the little change I have in my pocket.

Ok, its almost time for me to start work so let me run, hopefully I will be able to write a real post in the near future, but I just don't have the time to sit at a computer and for some reason I haven't been able to post from my phone (which would be ideal on my long trips to South Jersey). So until next next time, enjoy life and appreciate the people that Love you.

Happy pt 2

I've had a void in my life for about two years now and the pain of this missing part of my life continued to grow as the days went on. I tried accepting other people in my life to feel this void, but everyone fell short of what I really was looking for. Friends agreed to help me find what I was looking for, but I had to take matters in my own hands.

So after not getting what I really wanted for christmas or my birthday, I took to the internet and decided to get what I really wanted. With the encouragement of 'A', who probably realized I would not stop until I got what I wanted, I took to the internet with paper, pen and even my credit card. In only a day and a half of searching, of pure determination, I got what I wanted, found the happiness I had been looking for...I found my best friend. I had no way of contacting him once he moved out of the state, we didn't share any common friends and I didn't have any working numbers or email addresses for him. But I found him!

We have been talking and catching up via text since I got his number and it warms my insides to know that he is doing well and he is happy. We are currently working out the details on a meeting, yea I'm driving down to hang out with my best friend.

HAPPY

This will be a short post, a tease of sorts. I'm currently blogging from my phone again and I can't take it. But I wanted to share so here I am.

I woke up this morning with a sore throat, left out the house later than usual which meant I got to work later than usual (I like to keep to a routine, don't worry I was still very early for work), my mother and her demands return today, work is extremely slow, but I couldn't be happier. I finally got the one thing I wanted for christmas and my birthday yesterday, so now I'm complete. I got tired of waiting on others help, waiting for fate and just went after what I wanted. Who ever says a man can't make you happy, lied! So who is this man? I said this was a tease right? you will have to wait for that answer.

(Those of you who know already feel special but be happy for me because you also know the pain behind this)

random ramblings

I'm ready to be swept off my feet. I'm tired of reminding others that they are special and how a good man can treat them, I want someone to remind me that I'm special. Want someone to show me that I'm not the only good guy out there. *sigh* guess I want to remember how it feels to feel special, wanted, loved, appreciated and heard all at once. Its been almost 5 years since I felt that, recently I have settled for making others feel special. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with making someone else feel special, wanted, loved, but I just want to experience that feeling.

New music: I love ne-yo, I have a huge crush on him and have never denied it nor will I try to justify it, but his new cd is not as good as some would like us to believe. For the most part I just feel like crying when I listen to his cd, man was he going through some real shit when he put that cd together. Please don't get me wrong, its not a bad cd, just not amazing or great. Another cd that does not rise to the hype is jennifer hudson's cd. Now that cd is average at best to me. A cd that isn't getting a lot of attention that is packed with some great love songs is Joe's new cd. Now that man can write and can hold a note or two.

When do you win a debate by not answering the questions asked of you? When your name is Palin. I'm convinced this chicks neck game is sick.

Ok I'm tired of blogging from this old ass sidekick 2, until next time...