SOMETHING FOR EVERYONE
Let me start this post off by saying I apologize for my absence. Instead of reporting life I decided to take some time and actually live life. I haven't had time to sit and focus my energy on formulating words to express all that i have done, seen or experienced. I didn't want to throw up a quick post that was dry and emotionless so I decided to take a break from blogging. Now that that's out the way, on to my new post...
In a few hours 2008 will be over and a new year will becoming in and like most people I took some time to reflect on the year 2008. As most of my readers have come accusmosted to I plan on pissing some people off with my truths about myself, relationships and future, but unlike most other times I could careless and I won't be issuing any apologizes.
Relationships
2008 was a regression of sorts for me, I have distanced myself from the "group" and focused more on developing "me." Growing up I was never one to be surrounded by a whole lot of people, didn't like doing things in a group, one friend or none was perfectly fine for me. So, what does that mean? I haven't been a frequent visitor to any "group" functions and I have been venturing out on my own. I have limited my interaction to a very small group of people during this period of time mainly because I wanted to surround myself with people who share similar values/morals/goals as myself, which I can not say is true of everyone that I chilled with in 2007/early 2008. This doesn't mean those people were bad people or amoral, just our views on things were conflicting and before our conflicting views caused a major problem I had to distant myself. I'm trying to get into a relationship, find someone that respects me and themselves as much as I will them, and let's face it, you can't expect most people to take you seriously or respect you if the people you associate yourself with display whorish tendency or morals are less than desirable. Ouch, that may have hurt, but it's true. I want to meet someone, enjoy a conversation before sex, enjoy my friends without fear of one of my friends trying to holla behind my back.
I'm still single and I can't sit here and say I'm happily single, however, I'm not going to settle for a temporary fix or short-term fling. We shall see what 2009 holds for me, but I won't hold my breath.
Me
I'm doing ok. Unhappy with my job but ready to make a needed change again and doing things to change my situation. My current job just has been a ball of misery. The work itself is stressful and I'm surrounded by a bunch of bitches. So, I decided I want to go back to work in a group home with adolescent males. Even when that job was stressful, I still had a sense that that was where I was supposed to be, that I was doing the work I was created to do. Sometimes I guess it takes us to experience something else to find out what we are missing in our life.
I don't make New Year's resolutions, but I do try to plan on doing things differently for the upcoming year. This year I plan to make two trips no matter what or who comes up. I found my best friend Lamar this year and our relationship is better now than it was before, now I want to see if we can actually be in each others company. We planned a couple of times this year to meet up but something always came up (this time it wasn't only him, I have to share the blame this time). Next year I will be taking a trip down to see him whether he likes it or not. I will also be taking a trip to see my lil brother in Mass. We've known each other for 10 years now but have never met in person and 2009 will be the year. I'm a little nervous about going out there, not because I don't know how we would click because we basically know everything about the other, but I'm scared I will like it out there and end up staying.
Ok, I'm going to post this even though I lost interest in writing it while i typed, hell I'm actually on my way out of the house now and this is a rush job. Let me give a shout out to some people before I go (in no particular order): O, Ant, Mike, D, Greg, Shawn, X, Omar, Liyah, B, Moms, Sha, Mika, My baby girl, E, LaLa, Rodney, Steve, Branden, Brandon, EJ, YahYah, Neek, MLB, Baby boi, Matt, Cas, kilo, da bitch, Aaron, Jeff, Darnell, lil jay, ray
In a few hours 2008 will be over and a new year will becoming in and like most people I took some time to reflect on the year 2008. As most of my readers have come accusmosted to I plan on pissing some people off with my truths about myself, relationships and future, but unlike most other times I could careless and I won't be issuing any apologizes.
Relationships
2008 was a regression of sorts for me, I have distanced myself from the "group" and focused more on developing "me." Growing up I was never one to be surrounded by a whole lot of people, didn't like doing things in a group, one friend or none was perfectly fine for me. So, what does that mean? I haven't been a frequent visitor to any "group" functions and I have been venturing out on my own. I have limited my interaction to a very small group of people during this period of time mainly because I wanted to surround myself with people who share similar values/morals/goals as myself, which I can not say is true of everyone that I chilled with in 2007/early 2008. This doesn't mean those people were bad people or amoral, just our views on things were conflicting and before our conflicting views caused a major problem I had to distant myself. I'm trying to get into a relationship, find someone that respects me and themselves as much as I will them, and let's face it, you can't expect most people to take you seriously or respect you if the people you associate yourself with display whorish tendency or morals are less than desirable. Ouch, that may have hurt, but it's true. I want to meet someone, enjoy a conversation before sex, enjoy my friends without fear of one of my friends trying to holla behind my back.
I'm still single and I can't sit here and say I'm happily single, however, I'm not going to settle for a temporary fix or short-term fling. We shall see what 2009 holds for me, but I won't hold my breath.
Me
I'm doing ok. Unhappy with my job but ready to make a needed change again and doing things to change my situation. My current job just has been a ball of misery. The work itself is stressful and I'm surrounded by a bunch of bitches. So, I decided I want to go back to work in a group home with adolescent males. Even when that job was stressful, I still had a sense that that was where I was supposed to be, that I was doing the work I was created to do. Sometimes I guess it takes us to experience something else to find out what we are missing in our life.
I don't make New Year's resolutions, but I do try to plan on doing things differently for the upcoming year. This year I plan to make two trips no matter what or who comes up. I found my best friend Lamar this year and our relationship is better now than it was before, now I want to see if we can actually be in each others company. We planned a couple of times this year to meet up but something always came up (this time it wasn't only him, I have to share the blame this time). Next year I will be taking a trip down to see him whether he likes it or not. I will also be taking a trip to see my lil brother in Mass. We've known each other for 10 years now but have never met in person and 2009 will be the year. I'm a little nervous about going out there, not because I don't know how we would click because we basically know everything about the other, but I'm scared I will like it out there and end up staying.
Ok, I'm going to post this even though I lost interest in writing it while i typed, hell I'm actually on my way out of the house now and this is a rush job. Let me give a shout out to some people before I go (in no particular order): O, Ant, Mike, D, Greg, Shawn, X, Omar, Liyah, B, Moms, Sha, Mika, My baby girl, E, LaLa, Rodney, Steve, Branden, Brandon, EJ, YahYah, Neek, MLB, Baby boi, Matt, Cas, kilo, da bitch, Aaron, Jeff, Darnell, lil jay, ray
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