tuesday drags

Its funny, the more I hurt, the more I want to write. Writing helps me free the emotions that are trapped inside. Even though this forum is open to a public audience, I rarely write for my audience but for myself. Writing allows me to analyze myself and helps in my growth process. So as you read this, remember, I’m not writing to hurt anyone’s feelings. I’m not writing for the enjoyment of anyone else. I write to release whats inside.

What’s inside? Today I left work at 6:22pm and wanted to text or call you. I’m glad I removed your number from my phone, because I would have called. I miss you. Things between us is left in your hands and I’m pretty sure, its over. That’s a fact that I have to learn to deal with and I’m managing. But anyway…I was stuck on a call I shouldn’t have had for over an hour, which caused me to leave work late. I was pissed because I was supposed to be at my old job at 6pm. When I made it to my old job I felt the love that was missing from my current job. The boys really made me feel missed. Hopefully I will be working back there soon.

I leave the way I have started and ended recent blogs. I miss you, wish things didn’t have to end. I do want you back . But I’m fighting the urge to go all out and fight for you, but why fight for someone that doesn’t want you? If you decide to change your mind, you have my number.